I see that you've fallen, a lot really-- specifically this week. I know that hurts and I realize you feel like you're failing. and I want you to know that that's okay. Not only okay, but that's good! And I realize you're rolling your eyes at me right now and saying that "it's easy for you to say" thinking that I'm coming out on the other side perfectly alright, but I want to explain that that isn't the case. It's not over yet. And I'm not completely sure if it ever will be. But dang girl, I was sitting in the mundane endless line of work today and I was laughing and smiling with people I didn't even know, and sure! The sadness, like a magnet, came back and latched onto my mind, but that doesn't mean I wasn't happy for an hour or two. Now I also recognize that it's still hard;. Because it isn't lasting. Because after such a good day I still couldn't find the motivation to do so many things that I wanted to do. But I promise you are doing so well. You are still seeing other people and loving them. You still look for ways to give and love and believe. And even though a lot of the time I don't seem like I do, but I believe in you. I trust you to give your all and to love life no matter what hits you-- mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically.. ALL OF IT. You're a fighter and you're the hero in your story. Never stop fighting for what you believe in-- and that includes you.
Yours truly,
you.
