and the world keeps spinning

hidden behind walls of broken hearts and timid hellos
bruises and scars replacing the skin of my fragile chest
surrounded by stories of crippled promises and tired pulses
too many years of tangled hair and defective conversations

stuck wishing i never felt your touch
telling myself it couldn't've been you
it shouldn't have been you

fractured glass always made for a pretty picture but picking up each individual piece left me wondering why i never noticed how broken the windows of my heart had truly become
i have cuts from the sharpest lies and splinters from the parts of you i just cant forget
and looking in; everything is black and blue
remembering impulse syncing with your pulse turning to repulse just in time to watch me leave

wasting every 11:11 and shooting star on wishing for love when i should've been wishing that when it was all over, i could forget your name

flashbacks to when you told me he wasn't good for me
but everything you never told me
everything you thought i'd never know
looking in your eyes as unexplained answers flow from your mouth
all i see is him
the mirrors in his eyes
the bruises beyond his lips
the daggers in his tongue
the barricades in his ears and the magnets in his fingers

you have me frozen as your actions trace the fragile frame he left behind
one breath would be strong enough to blow me over
but dear, you left
and time numbs the pain
and i walked away

walls may keep me contained for a little while, but the windows are broken and i can taste the fresh air on my tongue
my skin is healing and everyday i take another step
refusing to look back

and don't bother offering another hello, love
i already said goodbye
and i closed the gate behind me.

~JQP

i like long titles and his poetry

he wasn't any sort of typical.

he was black balloons on a sunny day

and flowers in the winter

meeting him was like orange juice for dinner

but darling that didn't turn me away

surprised, i was when she said my name
under my collar felt like a flame
for the first time in a long time
someone saw this broken wolf as tame

maybe we weren't supposed to be friends and maybe we couldn't hold on

and maybe fate has unending red marks from face-palms and a head ache from yelling "wrong way"

but darling that didn't turn me away

like the grinch, my heart grew three sizes that day
her sweet voice was always there to sway disarray

talking to you was like fresh water on a hike

it was new and had my full attention

it was innocence and unopened doors

it was culture shock and an interested tourist

enticing and overwhelming

and completely unnecessary

seeing more than most, she knew just the tip of the iceberg
like a ghost; i was transparent to her

thinking you took my hand; you held my heart
trying to understand while in your arms

april 25, 2015
never did i tell her how she gleamed

jumping off cliffs never seemed this easy
but darling the bottom was just teasing

maybe you didn't catch me, but i never hit the ground
i don't know where i landed
but the fall is over now

radiant, warm, absolutely lovely
it must have been a dream

looking up i see your eyes and miss the sensation of butterflies and, love, it isn't a disguise

aa 
dtg

what used to be gravity now feels like a string attached to my heart
it doesn't bother me, but the feeling has my thoughts
i don't know where i am or where we left off
but darling, it wasn't a dream, and we aren't completely lost

JQP

Headaches and heartstrings

movies

                         books

 parks

    cars

school hall ways                   

                                         kitchens

doorsteps

dance floors

beaches 

                look out points

pictures                        

    poems

streets            

rainy days

theaters                                                        

my world is your stage and i'm sick of your spot light

i take it back

i'm sick of you

you've snuggled up in every nook in my mind

all you have to do is whisper

and i get chills

my stomachs twisting when i see you in the street

my eyes long to stare but i don't want you to see how badly i long for you

when you were untouchable life was much easier

but you've been so nearly mine that it's hard to resist the chase

i can feel your name on my lips

i can taste the freedom past the thickened air between us

but darling--

i cant take you

i won't take you

i'm scared that i'll do you no justice

i'm scared i'll be lost in your wake

that it's too late to even try now

that i should've taken you the first chance i got..

but i still want you

i still want you

you give me butterflies when you breathe in

you keep my mind racing all hours of the night

you have me forgetting what i'm doing

and remembering what we've done

dancing on bridges

wading in lakes

shooting but only ever hitting the rim

and dear you were almost mine..

but i won't take you

no

i won't make you

and now i can't have you.

maybe we'll try again in 18 thousand hours

but for now, please just leave the stage

i don't need to see you every time i open my eyes

i promise i'll still want you

but for now, adieu

JQP