Hi

my favorite color is yellow
or at least it was until the world wiped the smile off my face and told me blue was more fitting

I always wanted blue eyes but I've ended up with a dizzy rainbow that never knows what color to reflect back into the world
I guess its pretty, but I still long for blue

I live in black jeans and sweaters, but its spring time and the sun burns the skin on my legs, begging me to change

I always wanted to be a princess, and my mom always told me I was, but I've never felt of too much worth in these polished hallways

there's a guitar up in my room that only stays in tune for 30 seconds
I guess it needs new strings
or maybe just a better home

I've always wanted to share my music, but when I sit down with my lyrics and reality I'm yet again convinced that people don't want to hear it

maybe you've seen it or maybe you haven't but I have almost no confidence in myself
I feel as though I'll always fail hard tests even though I pass every time
I think my sister's 4.0 just scares me

I think I'm a pretty good dancer, but when I'm next to girls who have been dancing since they were 2 I lose all balance and fall off the stage so they can show me how its really done

most people think I have a good belting voice, or even a good jazz voice and some even believe my best style is indie or pop
but my unchanged voice sounds a lot like Doris Day, and if you ask me, I love when I sing old Broadway songs, because I sound kind of really good.

I find the sound of the wind and rain as the best music this world could offer
and when the waves kiss the shoreline it makes me feel at home.

long drives and wind in my hair clears my mind and one day I dream of someone my soul will allow to join me and my late night excursions

my hair is naturally curly
if you brush it: naturally poofy
if its the second day after being washed: naturally stringy
but I think it fits me, it takes well to being styled and doesn't have to change if I just want to go out

my hands are big, but you'd only notice once you held yours up next to them

I'm tall and that's okay
yes, I hate it sometimes, but its brought me happiness I wouldn't have found otherwise

I love playing with kids and I think its because I understand them more than I'll ever understand people my own age
their hearts fly on the tips of kites and all of us seem to wear ours on our sleeves

I'm in love with being on stage but I don't know if I'm any good in the spotlight
I've only had that opportunity in youth shows

I believe in God and that won't ever change
my best friend is a prince and he knows everything I've ever felt
I love him 

I can count the people who have truly cared about me and who have listened to my soul on one hand
and that hand, I hold closer to my heart than life itself

I've never attempted, but suicide is an echo engraved in my mind and the actions have come dangerously close to my hands

I think I'm beautiful on the inside but my outside has never been categorized as apparent beauty in my eyes
sometimes I see it, sometimes I don't

someone called me a hipster once,
I don't really think anyone's a stereotype 'hipster'

I love dandelions
even though they're weeds
I believe that I love butter because yellow reflected on my chin when I'd hold the weed up to my face

my favorite flower is a yellow rose
and my smile widens whenever I see them bloom in my backyard

I love birds because their wings fly with freedom in their wake

I love music because it speaks to my soul and not just my mind

maybe you don't believe me, but I love myself
yes I don't always like myself
but I've learned that dislike never erased love

I think everyone deserves to be loved
unconditionally
no matter their actions

I believe that rainstorms are god's greatest symphony

I know I don't know everybody,
but every person I've ever met holds a piece of my heart
and I don't think that trend will change

I'm not popular
I'm not a nerd
I'm not a genius
I'm not perfect

Hi
 
I'm AndraLee.
 
and I think that's pretty okay

most of the time.


~AA