sleep walking

Oh heart, please wake up

I know you are aching

And beating seems paralyzing

I'm just scared that you'll sleep forever

Oh mind, please pay attention

You don't need to stress about those tests

They've come and gone

I'm afraid you're ignoring what you haven't given time to process

Oh hands, please let go

You're holding on so tight to being okay

Please let us fall apart

I want to fall and for it to be ugly and healing

Oh darling, please take a moment

To mourn

To cry

To just be held for a little while

Time is not an issue

Feelings are not a problem

You will make it through this

Please take a breath

Wake up

Break down your walls

Let go

Allow broken to be broken

Only then will you find what is beautiful and what needs mending

Please fall apart

I don't want to be numb

I don't want to be asleep

I want to feel-- no matter how much it hurts

No matter how fast i think to run

I will fall with you

Our sobs will be a song of pain and hope harmonizing together

Please wake up

Please be here

Please let go

Take this moment.

Remember

it's better to just not be okay