my dearest future

dear you,

i was never too good at speaking my mind and the only part of my heart that spills ink on these pages drips with riddles and rhymes, but i know you don't mind. i don't know if we've met or that we'll meet any time soon, but i've realized you're always on my mind, and i just wanted to say a few things

thank you for making me believe in love again..i know i hoped for it, and i've been promised it..i guess i just never thought it could be so amazing..so thank you for that.

maybe we haven't done some of these things, but bare with me as i rant about my teenage dreams of love. tell me if i'm wrong--

love is the first time i held your hand because you weren't sure if i wanted to
and to be frank, neither was i
love is the question game for days on end and comfortable silences in your arms
love is the 3rd date because the third one really held the charm
love is the awkward hug before our first kiss and how it was more than they ever let on
love is the phone call at 2 AM and a sleepy "hello", but a "hello" nonetheless
love is laughing about the family memories and true laughs that turned to sore abs
love is sharing your testimony with me and realizing that you loved god more than you could ever love anyone else
love is the rain in the middle of the summer that covered my tears and your arms that cleared away the sobs
love is the starlit picnics and falling asleep on your chest
love is throwing handfuls of grass at each other because you brought up that stupid moment when
love is dance parties and flour fights and running through the sprinklers
love is our tree house dreams and childhood blankets
love is the day you asked my daddy for my hand
love is the kiss on my lips that covered up my endless yes's 
love is the night i knew it really was you
love is the day we changed forever to eternity
love is the first year changing to the second and the bills we never thought we'd be able to pay
love is our first house and the student loans that still need to be paid
love is the stress and love that somehow turned days to nights
love is us always turning to god because we both know we aren't strong enough without him
love is the day we decided to start a family
love is the night we held gods child in our arms
love is raising the most beautiful humans as children of god
love is the first lost job and the first move and knowing it would all be alright
love is the first day of school and the first crayon drawing
love is the first teenage "i hate you" and the last graduating "thank you"
love is the first one off to college and mission papers
love is the last one married and the 'empty nesters' parties
love is the first grey hairs and the wrinkles on our faces
love is the rocking chair and the deck and the first grandbaby on my lap
love is family reunions with our stories of the glory days
love is our couples mission and the love we felt from god
love is you holding my hand and kneeling by my side as we pray, kiss goodnight, and hold each other no matter the days contents
love is seeing happiness in rest and not worrying about the end because i know i have eternity with you.

love is whenever i'm with you. and i know you feel the same. and darling, i'm forever grateful i found you, because you know my weaknesses and you know how to push my buttons, but you always know how to make me laugh and you'll never betray my love.

thank you for holding my hand and keeping me safe. and dear i know you're laughing at me now, but you have no idea how much i love you. i'll never let you go as long as i live. i promise you my devotion and i know you and i will be okay. 

you are always and forever the smile on my face

forever yours-

Mrs. _______

~JQP